July 22nd, 2001

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...the best thing in my life...

So I was feeling gloomy, and checked out Catullus' webjournal, and he had this link to a weird goth tarot deck. Normally I'm too rational to ask a tarot deck a question, but I was feeling blue, so I did. (Specifically, I asked what the best thing to do about the fight Dave and I had was. Note that this isn't something where you actually type the question in, you just think it and push a button.) The answer I got was the King of Waterdrops, the description of which fits Dave to a T. And the only advice it gave was that I should do whatever it takes to make him happy. And so I asked it how I should do that, and got the Lovers, telling me to remember why I love him in the first place. Sigh. I think being superstitious tonight will just make me more depressed, so I'm going to bed. G'night, all.
P.S. to Dave: Good luck in the race tomorrow, sweetie!
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memo to self:

Big Audio Dynamite II has this song that I quoted in my senior highschool yearbook. I need to remind myself that I still see the lyrics as descriptive of my life. The best are the first four lines, although the entire thing has meaning for me.

If I had my time again
I would do it all the same
And not change a single thing
Even when I was to blame

If it were any other way, I wouldn't be me. And, when all is said and done, I'm glad that I'm me. It just sucks at some points along the way. Especially when you have a stomach bug on top of an emotional crisis. I think something I ate yesterday is still haunting me.
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    "Rush", by B.A.D. II, in my head.
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ate food. stomach seems okay with this. food provides energy to actually walk around without wobbling. much better. maybe I'll go over to SBJW's potluck, now that I'm not hungry. (it makes sense in my head -- I didn't want random food, I wanted something that actually sounded like my stomach could handle it.) or maybe I'll take a nap.
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    "O Brother Where Art Thou" soundtrack